Golden Year of Beating Resistance…
As we transition into September 2020, I have decided to reflect back on the previous months. There has been many changes for us all and new personal discoveries for most. Did you gain any new knowledge about yourself? Have you given yourself time to reflect on these new discoveries? Have you ever heard of a “Golden Year?”
A golden year is when you turn the same age as your date of birth, congratulations to those born on the 1st of the month that is a HUGE year for personal development! This year is mine. I had a lot of hope for this year which all changed with the help of a global pandemic! Everything changed for the best, I promise. I wanted to share what each month of living during a pandemic has brought me.
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Starting in March, I finally was getting back to work in the esthetics field after taking some time off to get settled into my new chapter of life. I was so excited to start waxing again with a new company! I finished the required training all to be told on my first day of accepting guests that myself and everyone else must stay at home for a nationwide quarantine.
Moving into April, the beginning of my “golden year” I was able to celebrate all month long, but with all of that celebrating I picked up some bad habits that I had managed to stay away from since my big life change.
May marked the first birthday of Vanilla 27 and a time to get back to work in real life and here on the web. My health was something that also began to improve. My lifestyle change carried on into June.
The month of June sent my life into a whirlwind of questioning, Am I supposed to be here? Is this what I am supposed to be doing? What kind of lifestyle do I want to live? It seemed like one thing after another was changing my mindset so quickly. Once July started I began taking things more seriously and I sensed some personal growth. That personal growth was abruptly brought to an end once August turned the corner.
Skipping to the last week of August where September starts in the middle, I began reading the book “The War of Art” by Steven Pressfield. He has given us three books within this book; “Resistance – Defining the Enemy”, “Combating the Resistance – Turning Pro” and the final book “Beyond Resistance – The Higher Realm”. And the goal to “Break through the Blocks and Win Your Inner Creative Battles.“
I was able to recognize how I was feeling the entire month of August just within the first few pages of his book. Reflecting back and being able to “define the enemy” I can now say that resistance started sneaking in by the end of July into the beginning of August.
In that short time frame, my self value had turned ice cold on a hot to cold rating scale. Steven Pressfield stated best,
“Resistance is Internal,
Resistance is the Enemy within.”-Steven Pressfield, The War of Art.
Once I was able to define this feeling, my heart accepted and I had become a sponge to absorb the rest of what Steven Pressfield had to say. Self-sabotage is the definition of resistance but resistance does not work alone, it recruits allies. While I was down in the dumps others around me started acting up. This sequence is mentioned in “The War of Art” it is apart of the recruitment process, much like the video edit of ADPI’s gates of hell.
“When a writer begins to overcome her Resistance-in
other words, when she actually begins to write-she may find that those close to her begin to act strange. They may become moody or sullen, they may get sick; they may accuse the writer of “changing,” of “not being the person she was.” The closer these people are to the awakening writer, the more bizarrely they will and the more emotion they will put behind their actions.
They are trying to sabotage her.
The reason is that they are struggling, CONSCIOUSLY or UNCONSCIOUSLY, against their own Resistance. The awakening writer’s success becomes a reproach to them. If she can beat these demons, why can’t they?”-Steven Pressfield, The War of Art.
I enhanced the importance of consciously and unconsciously because HOLY COW, nail on the head. Besides being in my own head, I felt a difference from my peers, my family members were getting sick, and I had people reach out to me that I hadn’t spoken to in YEARS. Before this quote, before even reading this book it took escaping my day to day life for a weekend to even feel lukewarm .
After reading, I was finally able to clear my head of everything that was going on around me and August was coming to an end. Feeling inspired, I sat down and began writing, I wrote a beauty review of products I had finished plus new one’s I had received. In my personal opinion, not the greatest piece I’ve done to date. I shared it anyway because by being able to write, I was able to “turn the tables on Resistance.”
Now being in September and reflecting back to what I was given this year, I will end this year by growing from an amateur into a professional. I will practice living in “The Higher Realm.” 2020 being my golden year sure does mark the beginning of the decade ahead of me. A decade of continuous personal discoveries and plenty of time to reflect on all the knowledge earned. Cheers! To making every year your golden year until you become platinum!